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Jul. 12th, 2021 09:16 pmI have missed concerts very much. But y'know what I don't miss? Concert anxiety. In the past, this has taken the form of "Can I drive 45 minutes on backroads on a school night to see Ronnie Spector live?" and "is it worth driving up to DC to see The Milk Carton Kids when I've already seen them live twice this year?" And now... what I'm going through is: "Should I buy tickets to see Sparks when they go on sale even though I literally only got into the band last week and who knows how long this fixation is going to last?"
On the one hand, I'm not even a huge enough fan yet- I love their 2000's/2010's/2020 output and everything else has been somewhat hit or miss (although I do like the videos I've seen of them performing their old songs live in more recent years, so... I'll get into why I prefer the newer renditions to the original recordings in a different post, perhaps). On the other hand... I feel like I owe it to myself to see them live, since they're already in their 70's and clearly won't be around forever, plus I'm pissed that I missed seeing FFS live when I could because of another concert anxiety (I had this really weird aversion to seeing concerts in NYC when I lived near there, and now I could kick myself constantly because ALL I HAD TO DO WAS TAKE A TRAIN TO THE CITY AND GET MY SISTER TO WALK ME TO THE VENUE, THERE'S NO HARM IN THAT!!!). And FFS is literally perfect (I'm still waiting for a second album, PLEASE) and the S part is Sparks, and I just...
God, if only tickets went on sale next week but were still announced now so that I had a bit more time to ponder. Plus, there's the fact that this is the first time I've seen a fairly legendary band in a while (even if they are still relatively under the radar) so I might be taken off-guard by the ticket prices and refuse to go anyway because HAHAHA! I'm a cheapskate!
...but then AGAIN, GOD I bet they put on a good show, and I would HATE for anything to happen later in life that genuinely prevents me from seeing them (besides my own stubbornness) and I'd be kicking myself for the rest of my life that I didn't just BUY THE DAMN CONCERT TICKETS...
...but ALSO, this is a fixation (or flirtation, as I really should call them) and I KNOW it will pass eventually and March is so far away, what if I've fallen in love with like ten other bands before then and am no longer interested in seeing them?
On the one hand, I'm not even a huge enough fan yet- I love their 2000's/2010's/2020 output and everything else has been somewhat hit or miss (although I do like the videos I've seen of them performing their old songs live in more recent years, so... I'll get into why I prefer the newer renditions to the original recordings in a different post, perhaps). On the other hand... I feel like I owe it to myself to see them live, since they're already in their 70's and clearly won't be around forever, plus I'm pissed that I missed seeing FFS live when I could because of another concert anxiety (I had this really weird aversion to seeing concerts in NYC when I lived near there, and now I could kick myself constantly because ALL I HAD TO DO WAS TAKE A TRAIN TO THE CITY AND GET MY SISTER TO WALK ME TO THE VENUE, THERE'S NO HARM IN THAT!!!). And FFS is literally perfect (I'm still waiting for a second album, PLEASE) and the S part is Sparks, and I just...
God, if only tickets went on sale next week but were still announced now so that I had a bit more time to ponder. Plus, there's the fact that this is the first time I've seen a fairly legendary band in a while (even if they are still relatively under the radar) so I might be taken off-guard by the ticket prices and refuse to go anyway because HAHAHA! I'm a cheapskate!
...but then AGAIN, GOD I bet they put on a good show, and I would HATE for anything to happen later in life that genuinely prevents me from seeing them (besides my own stubbornness) and I'd be kicking myself for the rest of my life that I didn't just BUY THE DAMN CONCERT TICKETS...
...but ALSO, this is a fixation (or flirtation, as I really should call them) and I KNOW it will pass eventually and March is so far away, what if I've fallen in love with like ten other bands before then and am no longer interested in seeing them?
